Tuesday, 23 August 2005

Dislocated day

This hasn't been a good day. Got up well in time, went to work on time, but don't seem to have gotten much done. Even the stroll on the deck was cut short because of rain. Not anything excessive, just big drops lazily splattering on the deck. Just enough to make sure I couldn't stay there as long as I'd have wished to.
I've realised that hope can be a terrible thing. It can take you to the pinnacle of expectation, and from up there the plunge to the bottom is even worse than say, from the not-so-dizzying heights of (heavily) guarded optimism. I know what they say, that hope is what keeps us from getting depressed with most of what happens in our lives. 'Cos let's face it, how often does something great happen? Not that often, or it wouldn't be that great anyway. But we keep hoping that something better's going to happen. When I wake up tomorrow, there'll be . . . Let's not even get started with what I hope there'll be when I wake up tomorrow, as this can go on and on forever. And in the meantime, I fail to see the cosy bed, the somewhat unfamiliar, but nonetheless decent enough food, the net connection in the middle of nowhere!!!
So I gather I'm better off just refusing to feel too bad about the current state of my life, rather than keep hoping that it'll turn into something better!
Oh, I did get a pic worth putting up, rain or no rain :).

And if someone's wondering why there's nothing but the sea and the sky in my recent pics, that's because there is nothing but the sea and the sky! But I'm not complaining, I just got to know that I'm getting off a full week earlier than I thought I would ;).

4 comments:

Akshi said...

Hey cool! Then come to Bombay convo time, that'll be great.
And the sea seems to be inspiring all profound thoughts. I agree with the bit about being happy with the current state of life, not so much with toning down of hopes. There should be something you are looking forward to/aspiring to, otherwise life would be just too settled or lets say boring.

kray said...

@Akshi - Believe you me, it's better not to hope for too much. Remember what happened the last time I thought I could miraculously make it to convo? Well, this is exactly the same situation. Even the very same reason for revision of schedule! So I am firmly not hoping about getting to convo in time!

Akshi said...

Hehehe, applying reverse psychology to fate. I guess we all do it to some extent. Chalo hope you don't make it to convo.
Ok, wats the starting replies to blog comments with '@' funda, I've seen it all over the place. Some kind of blogging protocol eh?

kray said...

Thats primarily for ppl with lots of comments, and if u want to reply to a bunch at a time, u just specify wat part's for whom by putting it '@them' so to speak (tho i'd have thot '2 them' wud b more appropriate). I just do it cos it looks cool :P