Sunday, 28 August 2005

Whirlwind

It's been proved yet again. I'm a bad influence. I moved into a new department today, and my new boss (I have a different boss in evey department and two more bosses overall. That makes it 6 bosses! Pheww.) had his worst day of this whole trip. As they say, everything that could go wrong, went wrong. By the end of the day, that is now, even I've learnt quite a few obscure UNIX commands that deal with vague problems affecting even vague-er systems and software.
I also realised, during the course of the day, that putting thoughts into words is not an easy thing, at least for me. Since, when I do happen to put my thoughts onto paper (or into a comp, same difference), they turn out to be difficult for other people to understand. And hey, I'm accepting this as a fact. Too many people have told me this for me to quietly turn my back on it and say, 'Duh! I'm not like that!!!' Anyway, since I'm temporarily at a loss as to how to deal with this, I'll ignore it anyway and get on with life :D.
Today seems to have been a day for introspection. Another thing that struck me was the vicious cycle that I get trapped into everytime I'm thinking about something. First I'm just plain thinking. Then at some point of time, I'll decide on evesdropping on my thoughts. That's where the trouble starts, soon enough I'm wallowing around trying to draw a line between my thoughts and my thoughts about those thoughts. You know what I mean? Of course you don't. Sometimes it's just easier to not think.... I'm currently reading Philip K Dick's 'Do Androids dream of Electric Sheep' and maybe that's gotto do something with these warped ramblings. Or maybe it's just me.

6 comments:

Anil said...

I have always felt its tad difficult to take ur mind to a state of 'Non Thinking'...

Thoughts of thoughts... its like a gushing water which keeps on flowing!! try to feel it before it flows... :-)

do u feel we should restrict our thoughts to a confined limit? we may not explore ourselves if we do so...

Akshi said...

Hm I think you are suffering from Krishna syndrome, the way he jinxes all India matches by watching them. Don't watch today's match and tell that to Krishna also. Let them win against Zimbabwe atleast!

kray said...

@ Anil - I'm all for unrestrictes thought. And, if one doesn't get psyched out by it, trying to consciously trace one's thoughts can be an entertaining experience. Especially when those thoughts are originally unwonted.

@ Akshi - Wotthehell are you talking about?? What have I gone and jinxed now??? And hello! Do you think I get cable TV out here in the middle of the sea?!!

Akshi said...

:O! Weren't you urself talking abt being a bad influence and all that. And now u are screaming at me :|. And who knows, you have net, why can't you have TV?

lakesidey said...

Cable TV in the sea of Okhotsk, maybe. Cable TV in the sea of Okhotsk showing India-Zimbabwe cricket?? The sailors would mutiny!!!

kray said...

Well, about being a bad influence I was limiting the reference to people having a bad time when I land up to work with them :D. And as for cable TV, no, we DO NOT have cable TV in the middle of the Sea of Okhotsk, and as Jose says, even if there was, people won't be watching India Zimbabwe match. Though there are 2 Indians and one chap who was born in Zimbabwe aboard :D. Oh this Zimbabwe-born guy played cricket with Shawn Pollock!