Sunday, 21 January 2007

Supernova!

We were theorising about impossibility. Skip's sure that there are other living beings in the universe, and my contention was that since you cannot possibly know, for all practical purposes, there are none! Pissed him off no end, but it set me off thinking. Imagine a sailor in the ocean without the slightest inkling of what shore is. No, I'm not stressing on my own desolation, it's just that we are in the exact same position. Somewhere in the universe, with no inkling of what the end looks like. If there is one in the first place.
Started reading up on stars and their evolution and came across the phenomenon of galactic collisions. It's awesome!!! Here we are, worried about some giant asteroid that's supposed to come ploughing into the earth at some point, and there's not a whole lot we can do, except maybe try to blow it up or something! Imagine being part of a galaxy that's about to collide with another! Even if we knew about it gazillions of years in advance, there's absolutely f***-all we can do about it!! Except maybe hope to somehow survive, and watch the stars play out a gigantic game of war where many die, many are born anew, and a few, the supreme warriors, go supernova! Wouldn't that be something?!! :)

Currently: starry eyed
Listening to: Oasis - It's getting better (man!)

Friday, 19 January 2007

Ouuchhhh! :(

Right, so it's crew-change tomorrow! And that's not the most important thing on my mind right now :|. Talk about looking at everything through a haze, all I can think about right now is the quickest dentist's appointment I can get once I'm back on land :(.

Some tortures are physical
And some are mental,
But the one that is both
Is dental.
~Ogden Nash

For the better part of this week now I've been grappling with the fall outs of wisdom :(. One in particular actually. So my first wisdom tooth came when I was about 18 or so, I think, could have been a bit earlier. The fourth and last one made an appearance around 20, but it refused to show all of itself. No doubt reconsidering such a premature conferring of wisdom to one so undeserving :|. Anyway, it stayed there, half in half out, waiting for the opportune moment.

That moment arrived this week. Sometime in the night, and woke me up with a terrible pain shooting through my head and reducing the left half of my lower jaw to a blur of mind numbing throbbing. Well, I'll save you from the gross bits about the tooth getting stuck under the jaw-bone, and grinding it's way through... nevermind. So now it's a little better, I'm not loaded with pain killers, and can still move my head around without wincing.

One of my slightly less observant co-workers came up to me this morning and went, "Hey man! You've really grown fat this trip!!" I pointed out the asymmetry and smiled at his widening eyes. Then regretted the move immediately. Smiling's still not on the list of do-ables. Which makes life kinda difficult, me being me.

Currently: in pain :(
Listening to: Natalie Imbruglia - Intuition

Wednesday, 17 January 2007

Time-pass

In this last week of this trip, I've chosen to completely overhaul my life off shift. (Yes Jon, I do have a life off shift, surprising as that may sound. :P) No more circuit training, no more madly rushing down the swaying and teetering non-existant path on a motionless bike, or rowing furiously while being buffeted by the waves that reach me through some n bulkheads... No more staying awake too late to get even 6 decent hours of sleep. Of course there were other circumstances, rather beyond my control, that also contributed to this, but we shall not go into that. At all.

Instead, I've been back to reading a bit more than I usually do here, and managed to finish Eldest. Loved it, and then of course was left hanging on the edge :(. There's a certain sense to reading a trilogy when all three books are out. Now I'm desperately waiting for two final books to come out, the last Game World book and the last Inheritance book :-<. Anyway, with not much choice, and since the the book had been lying bookmarked at page one since I bought it a month back, I picked up The Inheritance of Loss again.

It probably wasn't the best idea to go straight from Alagaesia to Kalimpong in a space of barely 5 minutes :|. There was a certain similarity in that gloom permeated both, the end of Eldest, and the beginning of TIoL, but the world, stripped of it's fantastic aspect, it's promise of an ultimately happy ending, and of course the magic :), seemed altogether too dismal. Coming across this article on Kiran Desai the next day did help get me more 'into' the book so to speak... though it might just have been the gap. But I'm beginning to quite like the way she skitters about in time and space with the narrative. I like it, but am wary of letting myself get too immersed into it, afraid that the gloom might somehow seep into me. And that, while still on the ship, is not a very good idea at all :D.

Then of course there's movies! After a sequence of really terrible, not so bad, but still quite missable, and one reasonable movie this side of new year, I'd gone back to old and trusted fare. The Lion King IIIs and the Sinbad- Legend of Seven Seas's and the Titan A.E.s never fail to amuse :). But last night I got somewhat dragooned into watching Almost Famous. I'm quite surprised how I'd never actually watched it before. I was quite blown away to be honest. It's exactly the fascinating, heartbreaking, out of the ordinary kind that I've come to love. And I was also extremely surprised, and very happy to see Zooey Deschanel (Trillian in H2G2!) with her sparkling eyes and weird look, and her awesomely funny name :D, though for a very teensy bit role.

And finally Sudoku. >:) Yes, it's back! Though the incidence of this passtime off-shift is usually merely a spillover from on-shift :P. So me and Jon are back at it, and at other vague variants of it that Jon keeps finding every other day! First there was Kakuro, apparently the monster cousin of Sudoku, which was a bit of a passing phase, but now there's Killer Sudoku! (Or Addoku, but I find that name disgusting, though it does convey the sense better.) Anyway, now that I've rambled long enough, I'd get back to my latest Killer grid, and leave you to figure out what these are from the Wiki links :D.

Currently: almost lukhha :D
Listening to: Oasis - Stand by me

Monday, 15 January 2007

Living on a prayer

I need to know that things are gonna look up
'Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup

I find it ironic, and at the same time completely natural, that we tend to pray really hard only when in trouble. (Or is it just me?)

I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me


I do know people who do not believe in God, or some other thing/being/entity to pray to. I'm always in awe of them. It would take a kind of fortitude to be able to go through life, with all it's uncertainties, injustices and incomprehensibility, that I find wholly beyond me.

Currently: brooding
Listening to: Train - Calling all angels

Saturday, 13 January 2007

Anger

A scar over a scar. New injury covering up old imperfection. Layers of hurt leave their marks, some visible, some not quite so. But he sees them all. A strange uneasy comfort in the memory of past indescretions, mistakes, accidents. He misses the old scar, resents the new one. One was a life, the other a death.

Current Mood: contemplative
Listening to: Tracy Chapman - Telling stories